We All Have Something to Give

"Each person we meet is either a blessing or a lesson." 

...I have found the more I listen and the less I judge the more I learn and the more adaptable I become. Shouldn't we all be that way? Live a life where we can freely be who it is we are, not question what we say.. with the intension that who we are in the truest form means well. 

If we focus more on becoming better listeners we can learn to be patient, accept  and love. The more I listen the more I become self-aware that no two people share the same knowledge, or set of experiences. That makes us unique, and able to offer something, no matter how small, back to the world. That is enough. 

I Need a Sign

I need a sign-- 

I am sitting on the hotel ground on the 17th floor in the 14th room through glass windows overlooking mountains and the city of Burbank, California. Why am I sitting here you may wonder, to contemplate-- to understand an end of a dream (possibly temporary) I have been chasing for the last year. Lately my posts, tweets and videos have been on questioning-- it seems to be that 24 is a pivotal point for me. I have never questioned life, my purpose, my journey more.  

It amazes me how fast things in life can be taken away, how quick the dreams of those who have worked so hard can be in the hands of so few and how life lessons always seem to come in unexpected packages. 

I am a young free spirit--thrilled and motivated by the next planned trip and by challenges that I set for myself to become better. I continuously attempt to push down barriers of negativity with my persistence in spreading positivity.  I don't find myself dulled or disappointed often, but here I am staring out these windows.

I don't want to get too far in the weeds with the particular circumstance that has me, today, in such a shade of gray. However, I will say that if you are reading this and ever thought for one second that life hands opportunities on a silver platter- that I want to know where that is-- because even in moments where everything seems aligned and that all that could have been done was done nothing can stop someone knocking on your door to tell you that you've been cut from an opportunity and it had nothing to do with you-- but that opportunity did not meet time simultaneously. 

They say everything in life happens for a reason... maybe the reason is that my opportunity will be next and destiny will pay back in greater dividends the next go-round. I hope this serves as motivation that even though the biggest opportunity has been taken away at the final leg of this race-- that I will be persistent, as we all should for the things we want and deeply motivated to do. 

We wait on miracles, or is that work?

We wait on miracles, or is that work?

Complacency has never been my thing, however, as of late I'm clouded by the reality of current circumstances and the desire to live the life of dreams where the probabilities are not in my favor. 

The beauty of the world we live in is that every goal can be achieved. We are told that hard work, passion and persistence will lead to success-- me, I am searching for passion. There is no doubt in my mind that the combination of those three attributes are destined to well rewarded outcomes...

So I have been traveling. Hoping that on this journey across the world, across the country, across the state that I will find a place-- find me. 

The more that I go on searching I realize the more it is that I want/need to know. I have found myself limited in depth, although spread laterally quite thin-- or as some say "jack of all trades master of none." So then I ask myself, what is it that I enjoy:

-Traveling

-Reading

-Hiking 

-Running

-Laughing/Joking

-Meeting New People

-Feeling Butterflies 

The irony in this all is that I don't think I could have worked harder to be where I am currently at, but here I stand (sit, on a plane) in more doubt questioning my purpose more than I ever have. Part of me believes this is the process of finding true self, the non-complacent (real) me is convinced that I should have this all figured out. 

--For now my uncertainty is my journey, but I'm sure once I find my purpose I'll be unstoppable.